Showing posts with label the anointing. Show all posts
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Monday, 14 December 2015

Third Level Excursion


Everyone has their stories. Usually the technique God gives is prayer and fasting. In the charismatic move many are the men and women that pray and fast then launch forth in the anointing.

But I want to break it down a further level under the microscope.
Here's how it happened for me when I was 20.

1. Doing something normal but God's way
I was a language student.Language students get practice by visiting their subject's nation in their summer holidays. In France, students pick grapes....or join student collectives that farm you out to different situations...in a family....extra English tuition to French schoolchildren.
God said NO.
He said find the most lively church in Paris and write to them.
This was November 77. Rue de Musset church Paris.
February, they wrote back and said there was no one to stay with.

2. Waiting
Absolutely convinced in my knower that my leading wasn't wrong. I waited upon the Lord....carried on my Exeter studies.
3. Waiting until egg on my face.....waiting until it was stupid
Summer holidays themselves came.
Nothing.
Still felt God was up to something. That internal excitement that has nothing to do with visuals.
4.Just do what is in your hands to do.
My parents thought I was completely stupid. They needed their huge hedge doing, so I did their hedge. It was now two weeks before Dales Bible Week at the end of my holidays
5.BANG!!!! God moves
I was just on my last section of hedge when the phone rings from Northern France. "We used to be in rue de Musset, are now in Normandie and need some help with a student.Can you come immediately?"
6. Thirdlevel Portal wide open.
From that phonecall nothing was normal for two weeks.
Arrived as a 20 year old student to help with English and help round the farm....until the next morning.
The family were Christians converted supernaturally....one was 80% paralysed by a heart attack and in a chair...and pensioned off as disabled by the French state. The Dad had then been 100% healed, converted, but the french atheist state wouldn't believe it and continued paying him as an invalid!!!! This helped them set up a "Ville de refuge" as God called them to build a city of refuge through Oral Roberts .
The mother had an epileptic fit the first breakfast. The anointing hit me like lightning and I zapped her, she fell asleep, came round two hours later 100% healed. This family didn't do half healings!!!!
A year later the Statedid recognise this and gave her back her driving licence.
We had an episode with angels singing outside our car which the Dad and myself both heard and sang to....thinking it was the other person's song.
We networked with leading french apostolic types. We travelled up and down the country. I was received as a prophet so this pulled my Prophetic anointing out of me.
Loads of answers to prayer....and then believing to get back to Dales....but the plane was full....so had to believe for a space....which suddenly occurred.....

Just another realm. And as those who pray and fast know...this is how the portal opens....

But I now want to tell you something more shocking...
Because up until now we only knew the first and secondlevel Christianity which is
IN and OUT of the anointing.... referring by the way to 1 John 2

Thirdlevel is even more dynamic.
You see it's not the fasting that is the point. All fasting does is centres you down to living very sensitively from your KNOWER within. In the Old Testament the verse is
Those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.

In Aramaic renew means two things
EXCHANGE.....your strength...
AND like ROPE....entwine your cord with God's Cord.

CENTERING DOWN...or GOING INTO YOUR INNER ROOM....
is entwining God's DNA around your DNA. it is much more specific than Buddhism.....which gets you to blank your mind so any which demon or principality can entwine round you and possess you, ultimately capturing you.....
God is always about freewill....
And far from feeling trapped....
If you entwine round His Psalm 19 frequency.....Day to day pours forth speech.....
You open portals of great power for God's divine blessing...

Here's the shocker....
The thirdlevel walk....which is Christ as you Galatians 2. 20....does this full time.
Romans 12 1-2 is this continuous thirdlevel walk.
You don't go where you want to go....you don't do what you want to do....but permanently in your innards Christ is imprinting on you

I come to do THY WILL O LORD....behold it is written of me in the scroll......about this state of just doing what the father is doing...but in your own Christ branch form.

In other words the "fasting thing" and the "all night prayer meeting thing" and all this feverish activity of the secondlevel is now swallowed up in a
24/7 Freefall of faith
where you are effectively "risking" or "betting with your whole existence"....because each of us only has one life.....that God will show up and do His thing through our bodies.

We sow in weakness....but we reap in eternal glory.....and also the odd revival portal opening up in our time space world.

As the whole church adopts this thirdlevel walk we get to
Kick the Illuminati
Kick princip[alities and powers
Kick the last enemy which is Death
off the planet.

God's Grace Power is made available in weakness.

One last thing....Paul let me in on something when he wrote this phrase......do good to all that in the Day of visitation all may glorify God on behalf of you.....

Do you catch the inevitability of Revival in that phrase?
Ed Miller proved it. He triggered at least 5 in his lifetime beginning with Argentina.
This is the outworking of the thirdlevel teaching regarding the Gates of Jerusalem......
Gates no 2 and 9 are revival type Gates. Revival or Ingathering Gate 9....the Eastern gate is the POSHEST GATE.....
It is what was going on in the Spirit in the explosion in Acts 2.
it's inevitable. If you do the Spirit cycle of the other Gates properly.....like an egg timer revival goes off automatically in the Spirit when that point is reached!!!!!!

it's like a woman after 9 months.....she doesn't have to wonder whether it's 12 months or 13 months.....when 9 months is reached the egg timer goes off and her body does what it does!!!!!!

Can you start to see why the devil hates thirdlevel teaching....and why although I have 1700 acquaintances on facebook , only 2 or 3 at any time comment???? The devil doesn't want any of you knowing this stuff or the planet will be set free......
And then GUESS who comes for TEA in the 9TH GATE when everything is completed?????

YUP.....Our Bridegroom comes rolling in!!!!!!!! See, the Bible has nothing to do with American Christianity at all. They can go on believing their cult ways as long as they like but Psalm 134, Ephesians 6 and psalm 149 say completely different things. Leave the Americans to their popcorn, we Brits, Africans and Asians will get on with opening thirdlevel portals!!!!!

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Chris Welch John Edwards Well I'm one of your three Chris. Great piece, I love this and try to live it. My journey has been similar, I can't find any presence in most of what goes on in 'Church' these days, Third level is where we are meant to live, move and have our being. A question, what's your thoughts on present things in the world regarding 'End Times'? God has been speaking to me re world happenings this last week or so and it crossed my mind to ask your slant. you know Russia, Turkey, Middle East, Isis, USA etc. I'm not sure so that's why I ask, so many conflicting teachings out there its hard to know.
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Chris Welch The protocols of Zion which Barry Smith never really mentioned by name, but was the blueprint he worked to....state that thir aim is to produce consternation and precisely the confusion we all feel.
They set off alarm clocks to all go off at once.
Obviously the Wars and Communism were three....
but the 60s was something different....the Cold War was obviously like the "rumours of wars" that Jesus speaks of....
but we weren't actually at war. Yet they set off loads and loads of things to go off in the 60s and look natural. They effectively cut the old order with a knife, right through the West. From then on we nolonger treated those in power deferentially, religion became "irrelevant", they launched the youth explosion in order to weaken the old Guard and bring in their programming. Women though liberated provided a secondary source of income so mortgages could double and triple, against which the credit card was born. Kids were then taught by the state from age 3 destroying all belief systems which now didn't have long enough to pass from parent to children......most of this is also in the Protocols written in 1880 we think by Lionel de rothschild.

So in answer to your question, loads more alarm clocks have been set to go off in our present period of such complexity....(which they actually talk about in the Protcols in terms of fine watch springs) that no one person can get to the bottom of the sets of DUALISMS they have built into the world system.
ISIS....causes wave of immigrants....and also kills and displaces Christians from all Muslim countries.....which means as Trump says we cannot but help but take in destructive forces to our nations.

In 2009 a German reliable Spirit filled prophet warned that a huge explosion was going to go off in the desert of Syria and we are not to be alarmed. So whether this will be nuclear or made to look nuclear.....
Nuclear doesn't help much if you want to take over the earth shortly after....so like a Tom Cruise film....I guess it will appear nuclear but be harmless.....

But as the plans of Darkness reach their height God IS PREPARING a Gideon 300....this time all over the world....and obviously in my jargon I call it thirdlevel.....many use other names....but in the Spirit it's about a mature overcoming church.....quite different from the fat lazy Jabba the Hutt type Blob that is
non born again denominationalism
evangelicalism
and
Bless Me "Ra Ra Ra" Charismatic merrygo rounds.

John, just like God got hold of you
In Iceland in Rekjavic God suddenly got hold of a pimp mafia guy who became a street pastor 3 or 4 years ago....

and in the last few months God has done the same here in Bognor Regis with a guy who was a major UK drug trafficker and who was about to machine gun down a roomful of rivals.....when God zapped him and said...."don't you dare pull that trigger....."
He then was converted and has become a new leading pastor down here.....

All these new guys are being zapped direct with downloads on thirdlevel principles without having to go through the years and years that we have been through....

So watch out for these guys....they are this new church God is building out of wrecks and Mary Magdalens!!!! They come pre-broken!!!!! straight off the conveyor belt.
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Sunday, 9 September 2012

KOG8 (New Books on Amazon) Repentance - Turning To Glory by Daniel Yordy


Suddenly God pulls back the curtain of the incarnation and lets the kingly glory of the Son of God shine through...John Piper..
"God's pleasure is first and foremost a pleasure in his Son. The Bible reveals this to us while showing us the face of Jesus shining like the sun. In Matthew 17 Jesus takes Peter, James, and John up on a high mountain. When they are all alone something utterly astonishing happens. Suddenly God pulls back the curtain of the incarnation and lets the kingly glory of the Son of God shine through. 'His face shone like the sun, and his garments became white as light' (v.2). Peter and the others were stunned. Near the end of his life Peter wrote that he had seen the Majestic Glory on the holy mountain, and that he had heard a voice from heaven, 'This is my beloved Son, with whom I am well pleased; listen to him' (2 Peter 1:17-18; Matthew 17:5).When God declares openly that he loves and delights in his Son, he gives a visual demonstration of the Son's unimaginable glory.His face shown like the sun, his garments became translucent with light, and the disciples fell on their faces (Matthew 17:6). The point is not merely that humans should stand in awe of such a glory, but that God himself takes full pleasure in the radiance of his Son. He reveals him in blinding light and then says, "This is my delight!" . . . I thought to myself, surely this is one thing implied in John 17:26 ["that the love you have loved me with may be in them, and I may be in them"--NET Version]--that the day is coming when I will have the capacity to delight in the Son the way the Father does. My fragile eyes will get the power to take in the glory of the Son shining in his full strength just the way the Father does. The pleasure God has in his Son will become my pleasure, and I will not be consumed but enthralled for ever"[italics mine].(John Piper, The Pleasures of God,pps.25, 26)



The above quote is not part of Daniel's chapter but concerns the amazing Glory as of the Only Begotten Son of God, Jesus.








Daniel's Two New books are now available on Amazon...pick your best country.
"The Jesus Secret", and the one from which this chapter originates "The Kingdom Rising."

The first instalment of this series is here.

The audio and PDF to Part 8  are available on this page
 
Repentance - Turning To Glory
I once believed that the life of an overcomer was a life of continual repentance, always "turning away" from self. I did not know that my "belief" was a continual action of gross unbelief denying the sacrifice of Jesus and His life inside of me.
Yet repentance is an essential element in our knowledge of God - at the beginning of each level or place of knowing Him. The reason God requires repentance is simple. He never shoves anyone around. God never imposes Himself on us; He always treats us with the highest regard. Thus God always refrains from doing anything in our lives without our permission. Once God has our permission, then He is free to release all the goodness and purpose of God in us, as us, and through us. From then on, continual "repentance" in the form we once knew is just another gimmick to deny God in our lives.
Now, part of slavery in this world is a desperate holding onto elements or things of security. Paul refers to these places of security or refuge in our foolish hiding from God as "strongholds." In Genesis 3, they were simply tree trunks.
True Christian repentance, then is nothing more than coming out from behind our tree trunks to stand in the light of God. In that light, the blood is always flowing over us. But the knowledge of the blood does not penetrate tree trunks. A stronghold is nothing other than any human attempt to hide from God. Continual "repentance" is actually such an attempt to block the reality of the blood from our hearts and minds. Continual "repentance" is just another tree trunk, one of many.
Strongholds are not part of us; they are, rather, fictitious constructions of our frightened minds as we attempt to hide from a God who terrifies us - or, is not under our control. Yet they become very large in our imagination.
Because the blood is continually flowing over me, I am not afraid of God. Much more than continually standing in the light regardless of any "self" or "not self," I am seated with Christ upon the throne of heaven. Upon that throne, I am very bold; yet the throne of God is always a throne of humility. God always serves; the "highest" always takes the lowest place, always raises others above itself.
The darkness of this world IS, however, a very frightening place in which to find ourselves. We do not know the way out. It was only a few years ago, when in a moment of the sweet revelation of Christ upon me, that I saw that "I" had fully disappeared into the Lord Jesus Christ - that He had completely swallowed "me" up into Himself, that I began to KNOW that Salvation utterly carries me.

 God never imposes Himself on us; He always treats us with the highest regard.



BUT, I was able to see that Jesus is my life, I have no other life, only because the Father, in His extraordinary kindness, had coaxed me, bit by bit, out from behind my tree trunks over the prior eight years.
From 1977 until 1998, my life was worked upon in a very large way by the ministry of a particular individual in the move of God by the name of Buddy Cobb. I have probably sat under more hours of teaching by him than any other person in my life. Now, I have no right or desire to comment in any way about Buddy Cobb's relationship with the Savior. But I am free to speak openly about his impact on my life because of the public place of influence he has held in the lives of thousands of people.
It is my own personal estimation that Buddy Cobb taught a different word than what was taught by Sam Fife or Jane Miller. Yet that word came always alongside all other word preached in the move. At the present time, this man’s teaching dominates most everything in that fellowship and most other voices have departed.
There was a time when I held Buddy Cobb's view of things at arm's length, but eventually I embraced it and taught it. Now, when I read back through what I wrote at that time, I can only weep. It is too sad for me even to refute.
In a recent letter, "The Mystery of the Holy," I made the following statement:
"Now, I once was taught that God was out to prove me, to see if I really loved Him or not, and the proof was in whether I heard Him speak every moment and did only what He said exactly as He said it. This teaching was the thing God used to bring me to utter hopelessness, that He might then show me the wonder and beauty of Christ."
When I say, "I once was taught," I refer to Buddy Cobb. More than that, he taught that God's love for us is, basically, incidental. What counts to God is for us to PROVE that we love Him. With great delight he taught over and over that when God says that nothing can separate us from the love of God, what God really means is that WE can walk away from that love so easily, and obviously, we live in a state of separating ourselves from His love all the time by our disobedience and therefore must prove to a hard-to-convince Deity that we really do love Him by a perfect obedience - and that is the only way WE can stay in His love.
He delighted further in teaching us that God "watches us with His eye-lids," meaning He makes us think He's not looking, so that He can catch us in our disobedience.
Now, that looks like gibberish to us now, of course. The problem was there was a powerful psychological manipulation at play. And I am using the immediacy of my own personal experience to get at the very largest stronghold in Christianity.
This man was in the minor leagues compared to the solitary intellect that controls the breadth and sweep of what we know of as Christianity.
The whole church is the Beloved of our Savior, and since we are His revelation in the earth, she is very much our concern in her entirety. Not one individual believer has ever belonged to the manipulators and controllers, to the forceful intellects and self-willed powerhouses who draw on the anointing of God to cement their place "above" her, no matter what sect or group or denomination. And because each individual believer of every stripe from the upper room until today belongs to Jesus, each one is very much the concern of the One who lives in our hearts and who fills us full.
No believer in Jesus belongs to or has ever belonged to the false. How could that be? Do they not belong to He who is Salvation? Yet, others have certainly laid claim to her; others have held a temporary and almost "fictitious" grip upon her. Do you see how bad an idea that is - to put your hand on the Beloved of the King of the Universe, the One who defeated death itself and is exalted above all the heavens?
Why did Buddy Cobb's teachings, so contrary to what God actually says in the New Testament, hold such a grip upon my mind and heart?
It is so very important for us to understand the answer to that question. I hope to show you that all of Christianity labors under the grip of an intellect far more powerful and far more pervasive than this man's - and for the same reasons. I truly believe that God intends to shatter through us the false hand that has reigned upon His Church for 1600 years.
When I wrote the letter, "God Is Beneath Your Feet," my whole understanding of God's order turned upside-down - or right-side-up, of course, though it still seems "upside-down." All through the years I lived in Christian community, I carried a question in my heart that found no answer. I loved Christian community, but for some reason, the whole structure of the communities, their purpose and focus, just did not jive with something I knew in my heart to be true. Then, seemingly separate from that question, through the years since we left that fellowship, another question has burdened my heart in deep groanings and travail before God.
Both questions were answered in totality as I wrote "God Is Beneath Your Feet."
I am unable to put the first question into words, indeed it never was a mental question, just a heart question that never left me. All I can do is tell you the same story my heart told me through my years in move community.
I grew up in the Mennonite church; many of my family lines are descended directly from the Anabapists of 16th century Switzerland. You trace up the line of my father’s mother, the Stauffers, and you trace up the line of my mother’s father (through an ancestral mother – thus a different last name), and you come to two men, forefathers in each line, who lived as Anabaptists in the same Christian community in Switzerland and were driven out by the authorities, losing everything, in the 1560’s.
During my childhood years, I read a story set in 1500's Switzerland, a story that is the first question I held.
A group of young men, drunk and rowdy, seeking some fun for the night, alighted on the idea of doing some damage to those "heretics" in town. They found the home of an Anabaptist family, climbed up onto the roof, and tore the slates off the roof, flinging them in every direction. Meanwhile, the family beneath them busily prepared their defense. They cooked a meal; they made refreshments. As the young men finished, coming down off the roof, they found an open front door, warm smiles, and a welcome. "Come and have refreshments after your hard labor." Sheepishly, they entered the home to be served with great kindness by the Anabaptist family. The next day they returned and labored again to repair what they had destroyed. Some, I'm sure, found an open heart to hear this "heresy."
Something inside my heart told me that this was God's order for His church. There was certainly much love and kindness in move community, but the "order" of the communities did not ever agree with the story of my heart.
Let me now attempt to explain the second question, a question that I have held before God with many tears through the last decade.
God anointed Sam Fife more powerfully than anyone I have ever known. Sam Fife believed absolutely in what he preached, that Christ is a corporate man, and thus never ever ran any kind of a one-man-show. Rather, he lifted up a corporate ministry around himself, and the anointing of God upon him reverberated with the anointing upon them. To Sam Fife, the pulpit was always open to anyone.
Some may well argue that I am a very impressionable person. Whether or not, I do not judge myself, though I know that far more than being impressionable, I question everything, I require evidence of all things, and I search the Bible to see what God actually says equal to any, and far more than most.
Maybe it could be that I see things others do not see and hear things others do not hear. Yet many others also testified that the anointing of God upon Sam Fife which flowed out within a corporate ministry was beyond anything they otherwise knew. Many others were the same as I, "This guy is crazy!" Yet they could not but remain upon their face before God, "God, if this be true, show me," as did I.
Now, the bulk of what Sam Fife preached came out of George Warnock's, The Feast of Tabernacles. If you read that, you will be reading the central truth's of the move of God while Sam Fife was alive. Certainly, he added his own personality, his own wacky views of things. That is a given. God cannot speak except He speak through men. Christ lives as us in this world.
I left the move for two reasons. First, it had strayed too far from the word God had birthed in my heart in those early years. And second, something woven all through the move and move community was just not right. I did not know for certain what that something was.
In leaving the move, I threw nothing out. Rather, I put everything on the shelf, and I made an agreement with God. "God, You will pull off that shelf all that is truly of You and rebirth it in my heart. All the rest will simply stay there to be discarded as You reveal Yourself in my life."
But as time went on, the depths of the knowing of God that I once knew could not remain quiet. God had birthed a word and a vision inside of me, and I was pregnant with it. To be pregnant is to travail.
I had sat in the move conventions, listening to the most profound words I have ever heard. The anointing upon that word and upon those ministries lifted me up above myself. The throne of heaven was wide open and from that throne came into my equally wide-open heart a vision of the revelation of Jesus Christ.
I have never escaped from that heavenly vision; it grips and rules my heart to this day.
The anointing moved me. The river of power from the throne of God caught me in its flow. I cannot ever be content with an un-anointed world or with an un-anointed church. And I was not the only one moved by that anointing. That anointing moved us to abandon everything of this world to follow Jesus. It moved us to a life of power in the Holy Spirit, a life of walking together, a life of seeking the Holy, the revelation of Jesus Christ, on our faces before God.
Because people do not fear God, they play tiddly winks with Him. When God speaks, I tremble. God is always speaking; the reverberations upon my own heart and life never cease. I will not "discuss" truth with people who are not on their faces before the presence of the living God, with wide-open Bibles and wide-open hearts.
So my cry and question before God has been, "God, it is Your anointing visited upon Your servants that moves us to a higher level of knowing You than we have ever known. Where is that anointing today? How I long to be caught up again in its power! How I long for my children to know that same Throne Word that grips my own heart."
But the question I have held before God has a second part; it is this. "God, how could such an anointing, carrying such a vision of Christ, also carry something, I don't know what it was, that was false?"
I now know the answer to the second part of that question. Let me give you the short version here.
Augustine.
However, I do not want to talk about Augustine quite yet. Allow me to finish the foundation for the question: "Must we repent of Augustine?"
The false thing that was inserted by Sam Fife into the pure word from the throne of God, a word flowing out of George Warnock's The Feast of Tabernacles, is the very thing that caused me to give undue weight to the power of a man, Buddy Cobb, whom I knew twisted Scriptures and labored over nonsense, placing Solomon as the ruler over Paul's gospel, a weight that brought me to a place of utter hopelessness.
After writing "God Is Beneath Your Feet," I remembered almost exactly what Sam Fife had said. (I say "almost exactly," but since I will not go looking for it, I will paraphrase.) "The apostles and elders in the move of God are anointed by God because they are closer to God than you are. God has anointed them to be the expression and the covering of Christ to you." Linked tightly with that understanding were the words, "Touch not My anointed and do My prophets no harm."
We believed that; we believed that, because this most profound of anointings, continually proven by the experience of God in our midst over many years, did in fact rest upon the apostles and elders of the move of God; therefore, they were the covering of Christ to us. I submitted my life and my walk with God to that belief for 21 years.
We were hanging upside down. On that point, Sam Fife was completely wrong. Those anointed by God in the church are the ten percent who are wise and capable in this world. They are anointed for that reason - as servants to the heirs of salvation.
No one notices servants, nor honors them, nor asks them for advice. They are servants. What they have is not their own; it is in their hand only to be given to others. Once their service is given, they retire into the shadows, and no one notices them. Jesus made this very clear to the disciples.
To give honor to servants is to stand on your head. Yet in the church of Christ, we have done so. Look down, God is beneath your feet.
I hoped to write a letter at some point titled it, "Turning the Church Right-Side-Up." In that letter I hope to show how ministry might function in a church turned right-side-up. Here, I will continue exploring the upside-down view held by almost all of Christianity, not just the move of God.
I find, here, that I can best express how and why I was caught under Buddy Cobb's ministry by sharing with you from an email I wrote to Chris Welch.
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I've been sitting here pondering, wanting to put into words just what it was we practiced. You see, Sam Fife taught, "After the Due Order," that God has set a five-fold ministry into the church as the covering over God's people and that apostles were "first" and prophets second, but only as a confirmation ministry, not any authority themselves. It came down to a two-group ministry, apostles over all and elders locally.
Thus all important decisions were submitted to the covering for their witness.  
It was not that the ministry ever told anyone what to do (except in the normal operations of practicing community). Each person was taught to hear from the Lord for themselves, and then to submit their leading to the elders for confirmation. Elderships submitted their leadings to the father ministry for confirmation. At both levels, prophets were asked to seek visions from the Lord without knowing what they were praying about. Thus, the visions were impartial and either confirming or denying. Many, many decisions were made based on the witness of the visions. Most of the visions received for me through the years were powerful and important. But near the end of my time, they became the opposite, confusing and devastating - not the visions themselves, but their role. But that's another, though very interesting, story.
Now, here's the thing, those who gave their hearts to this teaching and practice made a personal commitment to do so because of the word of the Lord made real inside of them. Then over the years, the power of God in anointing continued to confirm to our hearts that, yes, this was the move of God.
 I will not "discuss" truth with people who are not on their faces before the presence of the living God, with wide-open Bibles and wide-open hearts.

Yet here is what happened psychologically. Innumerable times, one had to tell one's self, "Submit to the ministry and thus you are submitting to God." There were times when one had to go against what seemed right. Always, those who were committed to the move, myself included, mentally told one's self that God holds submission to the covering above all. I have heard that preached so many times and held to it myself at great personal cost.
Now, as I said, God attended us with His presence and power. Yet you can see the powerful psychological bonds taking place. Thus, to finally break with that belief and "leave the covering," was for most a devastating experience mentally. Especially when you were also walking away from years of labor and all your investment with nothing.
And, of course, the flip side of practicing this mental story we told ourselves over and over, was that the greatest "sin," then, had to be leaving the "covering." Thus, those who left had demonstrated the greatest rebellion against God. They might "pretend" to continue as Christians, but we knew that God was no longer leading them. And no one was really "with God" until they made the same mental commitment to "the covering" that we had made. People who are still in the move do not deny that I am a Christian, but many will not practice fellowship with me or believe that I might be "hearing from God."
Now, inside of that structure was much truth and much wonderful word and revelation and outpouring of the Holy Spirit. Yet, as humans, we always take God's presence, not as a gift because of the blood of Jesus, but as a result of our "having it right."
"After the Due Order" comes from the passage where David brings up the ark to Jerusalem. You see, he had tried to bring it on a cart. It began to fall off. One of David's men tried to stop God's presence from hitting the dirt and fell dead. Then, three months later, David told the priests to carry the ark on their shoulders. He said, "We did not do it the first time after the due order." God's order was that the descendants of Aaron only would carry the ark on their shoulders.
Sam Fife preached all the time that his version of "Divine Order" was the New Testament "due order" that the Babylonian church had failed to follow. Yet what he set in place was just another form of putting the hand to the ark to keep it from hitting the dirt.
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In the summer of the year 2000, I had been separated from looking to the move ministry as "covering" for two years. However, the words and teachings of Buddy Cobb still weighed heavily upon my heart. I was astonished at times by expressions of the love and favor of God towards me through other Christians, but the icy weight of "God loves me, BUT . . ." only thawed slightly, it did not lift.
Finally, I was in a service of the church that blessed and helped us so much when we lived in west Texas. There was a mighty anointing of repentance and deliverance upon the service. People were going forward to stand in the presence of God. I joined them. As I lifted my heart up to God, Buddy Cobb came into my mind. I knew in that moment that I needed to be free of him. I said to God, "I repent of ever having listened to Buddy Cobb."
For the first time, I heard the words, "God loves me." And the need for a - ", but" - to follow no longer existed. The period at the end of the sentence was full and comfortable.
That repentance was a one-time act. It was necessary because of the agreement I myself had made in the past to place a tree trunk, a strong-hold of hiding, between myself and God. Now that I had repented, I could begin to hear God speak once again. It still took a few more years for the thawing to be complete, before I could hear God in the measure I enjoy today. But the repentance was complete in that moment.
True repentance is simple. It is simply turning away from what is untrue and standing fully in the light of all the glory of God revealed in us. Once we have done that, there is no further “repentance.”
I share all this about repenting of having listened to Buddy Cobb because Christ is made personal in each of us and to show you an exact correlation to a far, far larger intellect that holds all Christianity in its icy grip.
Read the next part of this letter to learn about the extent to which Augustine has ruled our minds and hearts.